Transvestia our true sex to ourselves, but there were moments when I felt a deep longing to have one of these attractive girls as a confidante. Despite my deep happiness at the luxury of my girlish existence, I seemed to sense that there was something missing in my life. Thinking it over in the quietness of my room one evening, I came to the conclusion that it was love that was lacking to me, the loving and being loved.

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Hence, when Edwina repeated an oft-made suggest- ion that I should make up a foursome with her and a couple of boy-friends, I decided to give it a trial and see whether friendship with boys would fill my gap for me. I had known for some time that Edwina had a boy-friend and that she always seemed happy after being out with him. Perhaps I, too, would find happiness this way. I assumed, of course, that Edwina and I were being accepted for what we purport- ed to be, two girls, so I determined to see if there was any real fun in flirting as a girl. Thus, when Edwina's friend, Harold, brought quite a hand- some friend, Robert, along in his car, I was at my best and looking forward excitedly to the experience. We drove out into the country, Edwina in the front with Harold, and I in the back with Robert. Robert, or Bob as he preferred me to call him, was well- spoken and interesting, but, from the glances I caught him giving my face, figure and legs, I knew I had make a hit. At a quiet spot, Edwina and Harold got out to go for a stroll, leaving us alone in the Bob was a fast worker, for in no time he had an arm round my waist and was pulling me to him to plant a long, passionate kiss on my painted lips. He stopped to whisper in my ear, telling me what a lovely girl I was and how glad he was that I had come along. As his mouth closed over mine again, I felt an urge to reciprocate, so I pressed against him and kissed him back. He now became really pas- and

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sionate, kissing my eyes, ears cheeks and lips, softly stroking my hair. I was finding it all so exciting and I did not check him when he allowed his

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